"I Say a Little Prayer for.... ME."

Yes, that's right.  I'm saying prayers for myself.  That doesn't happen often, tell you what!  And they're not direct "Please do this" prayers, they are more "Please help me understand my path" prayers. 

I've always joked about the fact that my path hasn't lined up with God's, not much at all.... I never dreamed I'd be a college educated world traveled-career woman!  I always thought I'd be married right out of high school, and be a part time worker/mother of multiple children by the time I was 30.  Now, I'm single, 34, and living with my parents because landlords don't rent to pitbull owners, and I don't save as well as I should - but I'm working on it! 

Now I'm presented with health problems that are slowly but surely eliminating the possibility for me to have children.  I am totally okay adopting, actually look forward to being able to love and cherish an unwanted child(ren) the way they deserve to be loved!  HOWEVER, many adoption agencies openly state that they rarely place infants and children with single parents.  Nevermind the fact that I am gainfully employed with the Federal Government and have a strong support network of family and friends, nevermind the fact that I have a strong faith community behind me and will raise the child as one of God's children, I am not married and therefore I am seen as an unfit mother.

An unfit mother.  Words I never thought I would ever have used to describe me.  Even if it was a blanket statement made by multiple agencies as a broad generalization, the words are out there. 

I found an agency that alleges to encourage all lifestyles, including single parenthood and same-sex couples... going to start really digging in to their practices and contacting them for research.... we shall see.

Until then, I will be the best darned auntie there is, hands down.  And please pray for me.