It's that time of year again, folks! What have you decided to change in your life? Last year I did Grateful Photos and those were really a lot of fun, helping me to quite literally count my blessings. Quite a few of my friends are giving up Facebook for the Lenton season, and I really thought about that, prayed about it, but one word kept coming up over all the others: GRACE.
No, I'm not giving up Grace. I am asking for Grace, every single morning before I even get out of bed, every day. We really should be doing this anyway, but I'll be the first to admit that I get preoccupied with the day ahead of me and just trust that God will give me what Graces I need when I need them.... but to put intent, thought, and effort into it, it has a deeper meaning.
On this first day of Lent, I asked for the Grace to forgive people who have hurt me. Again, something that should be a given, but I let it be out-of-sight-out-of-mind and just keep moving with the bandaid rather than helping the wounded parts of me to heal. That proverbial bandaid defeats the purpose of forgiveness. I used to think that forgiving meant forgetting, but that's not the case, most definitely not in this situation. And the person who has hurt me so deeply is in a circle of friends whom I'm not willing to give up, so I must find the Grace to forgive. I will be tentative and cautious when speaking (if speaking) with her again, but I need to heal my hurt, I need to ask God to heal my hurt.
Mother Mary, you bestow Graces upon us, as you are filled with God's Grace. Please help me, grant me God's Grace to forgive those who have hurt me so grievously. Jesus, fill my heart with Your Love and help me to share that Love with others, as You have asked me to. Amen.