Friday, May 21, 2021

What am I Doing? ... Be Not Afraid...

 Last weekend, Father was there when I noticed the Christ-light candle was burning low, and I commented that we would be needing a new one soon, likely before the masses for the day were done. He looked at me and grinned and told me to have faith, that the candle could last through mass, "you never know..."


How ironic. Here I was getting ready to take a huge leap of faith for me, leave everything that I knew to be safe and secure, and go help in a situation where these children had been more brave than I ever thought I could be. They had taken a bigger risk than many people will ever need to take, leaving their homes, their families, and traveling hundreds or even thousands of miles by any means possible to go to a country where they may or may not speak the language, all in the hope that they may find a better life... but I couldn't have faith that a flame would last a few more hours? 

And so I let it burn....

Leslie and I prepared for mass, I picked Be Not Afraid as a prelude since it's a favorite that everyone knows and loves, and we didn't have anything else prepared... sometimes it's nice to take the easy road at 7:30am! 

7:55 rolls around, she starts to play, and I begin to read the words.... 

"You shall cross the barren desert, but you shall not die of thirst.
You shall wander far in safety, though you do not know the way.
You shall speak your words in foreign lands and all will understand.
You shall see the face of God and live.

Be not afraid, I go before you always.
Come, follow me, and I will give you rest...."

I lost it. I absolutely lost it. I tried to pull it together for the second verse, but every single word seemed more and more applicable to the situation I was preparing to face at the border. By the time I got to the refrain after the second verse, I was sobbing. I looked at Leslie from my covid-mandated 15 feet away and said "I just can't..." and I sat back in my little alcove, sobbing, trying to pull myself together before mass started. She graciously continued to play a beautiful piano arrangement of the tune, and by 8am, people were none-the-wiser. 

I sang with my rosary around my neck the rest of that Sunday. 

The prayer candle needed to be replaced between masses. 

Faith and logic split the difference that day. 



Wednesday, May 19, 2021

Let the Dominos Begin to Fall...

 As the song says, "Signs, signs, every where are signs..." and believe me, the more I prayed about this detail for the next four months, the more signs keep popping up! 

Our home priest is retiring and 'lightening the canoe' as he says. The piece I was most called to bring home was a framed print that was very obviously from Latin/South America, and it showed the People's Jesus, crucified in the center of town, watching over everyone and everything. 

The artist ended up being Guatemalan. Father received it as a gift when he was visiting Columbia. The imagery is so powerful, how Jesus is one of the people, by the people, for the people... How could I not have given it a new home? 

The vacancy at work was suppose to close at the end of April, but when I looked, it had been extended to the end of May. We were only, originally, approved to have one person from our region selected, and they made an exception to have my application submitted as well. Within 6 days, I went from just realizing this was available to realizing that I needed to start packing!  It was amazing how things fell into place, so perfectly. 

My brain even started thinking in Spanish more and more, without me realizing I was going it. EVERYTHING seemed to be pointing to this being right. Scary, nerve-wracking, unknown, but *right*. 

The last time I felt a calling this strong was when I was looking for colleges and walked onto the PLU campus; I just knew... and now, I just know... this is where I need to be, what I need to be doing... 

Tuesday, May 18, 2021

This is My Why... Taking a Leap of Faith

 Six days ago, I posted a series of photos on Instagram and Facebook, and quoted Psalm 46:5 "God is within her, she will not fail." I said "Warriors of Prayer, a lot is happening. I'm holding many things close to my heart right now, but these images mean a lot to me, and are very much a part of my "WHY". Any bits of light you can send my way would be greatly appreciated.".... and so it began... 

I know that God always hears what's in our hearts, especially when our emotions are sooo big that we can't even begin to form words to express what's going on. The opportunity has been presented to Federal agencies to help with the situation at the Southern border of the United States, where thousands of unaccompanied minors are pouring in seeking shelter and safety. 

Six days ago, I needed prayers for discernment, guidance to see if this was what I really wanted to do -I mean, I knew it's what I wanted to do, it's where my passion has always been, but to up and move for anywhere from 30-120 days... taking that first step, I knew, would be hard. 

As I prayed, I really thought about all that those children have gone through to get here, and how much they needed me. One person, me. Why would they need me? What can one person do? One person's voice, one person's attention, one person's passion? Then I remembered a piece I read that was published when the masses were first coming to the border during the previous administration, and how the children and parents were being separated.... I remembered how I wept at the thought of the absolute faith and courage it took these families to find any way possible to travel hundreds and sometimes thousands of miles to come for the thought of what might be a better life, only to have the very objects of their faith ripped away.   

Rosaries and Bibles, copies of the New Testament confiscated as dangerous paraphernalia being smuggled into the US by "illegal immigrants" as they were separated from their families, children in one line, men and women in separate lines. 

 It was then that I knew - I KNEW - that I could not say no. I contacted management, and the dominos began falling into place... 

When in doubt, pray. Take that leap of faith. Faith. Yes, there's fear involved, but having fear makes Faith all the more rewarding. 






Tuesday, August 7, 2018

I'm still here!

There's been a lot going on... and I've got lots of sticky-note blog ideas, but Lord only knows where they are!!!  It's my intention to dig out my trusty-dusty old laptop and start blogging more, both here and on my personal page.... whether I have followers reading there or not, I need to get a little more out of my head. 


Stay tuned, and thank you - as always - for reading here. Please keep praying for one another and sharing your Faith!


In Christ's Peace,
Melinda <><

Tuesday, February 13, 2018

Well HELLLLLLLLLOOOOOO!!!!!

Sorry it's been sooooo infernally long, guys, I got locked out of my google accounts and could only access things on my phone, but blogger doesn't play nice with the new iOS updates...


GOOD NEWS - I REMEMBERED MY PASSWORD!!! 


PLEASE - stick with me, expect more writing, SOON!


Love and prayers on this Fat Tuesday as we roll up on Lent! <3 p="">

Thursday, August 10, 2017

Spiritual Weightlifting

In my line of work, one of the questions we ask in our interviews is "What is the heaviest thing you lift and how far did you carry it?"

The response today inspired me to write - the answer on the form said "I lift nothing heavier than a bible."

Now, if you ask me, that's pretty heavy.  Not literally, of course, maybe 5-7 pounds, but figuratively, spiritually, whoa.  Carrying the bible with you is never something to take lightly.

I plan to expand more on this, but for now, I'm going to leave this here....

Tuesday, March 7, 2017

Give Me Liberty or Give Me Death

Do you know who said that?  Patrick Henry.
Do you know what the words that come before that famous line?

"They tell us, sir, that we are weak; unable to cope with so formidable an adversary.  But when shall we be stronger?  Will it be the next week, or the next year?  Sir, we are not weak.  The millions of people, armed in the holy cause of liberty, and in such a country as that which we possess, are invincible by any force which our enemy can send against us.  

Gentlemen may cry 'Peace, Peace!' -- but there is no peace.  The war is actually begun!  Our brethren are already in the field!  Why stand we here idle?  Is our life so dear, or peace so sweet, as to be purchased at the price of chains and slavery?  Forbid it, Almighty God!  I know not what course others may take, but as for me, give me liberty or give me death!"

Now.... I ask you this: Do you have that kind of passion, that conviction, about, well, anything?  I'm not asking if you would die for Christ... of course, that's the first thing that pops into our heads, would we be willing to martyr ourselves for our beliefs... but it is more of a canned response to say "yes" when thinking about this in terms of religion.  What about our country?  No matter what my political beliefs are, I am an American, and I LOVE MY COUNTRY.  It doesn't mean that I am defined by one person, it doesn't mean that I agree with the impositions of lawmakers, but it does mean that I respect the foundations of this country, and the many sacrifices that brought us to where we are today.

Master Chorus Eastside performs a patriotic concert every year, and last year we focused on the Founding Fathers... that is when I truly understood what it meant for those men to commit high treason against the Crown.  They were willing to die for a pipe-dream that was discussed in bars, after hours.  And not in a radical, "blow up the nearest Red Coat" sort of way, but being willing to take action - "The war is actually begun... why stand we here idle..."

George Washington said, "The time is now near at hand which must probably determine whether Americans are to be freemen or slaves; whether they are to have any property they can call their own; whether their houses and farms are to be pillaged and destroyed, and themselves consigned to a state of \wretchedness from which no human efforts will deliver them.  The fate of unborn millions will now depend on God, on the courage and conduct of this army.  Our cruel and unrelenting enemy leaves us only the choice of brave resistance, or the most abject submission.  We have, therefore, to resolve to conquer or die."

Again - the only options presented were to live free or die - period.

In Rainier Chorale, we are working on a phenomenal piece by Randall Thompson, The Testament of Freedom, a setting of four passages from the writings of Thomas Jefferson.

Guess what, folks - this is what it's all about... and it feels dramatic... and it feels over-the-top... and, on the surface, it seems very ethnocentric when you look at how so many people try to define "America" today, a blend of all cultures, not so much seen as a melting pot anymore, where people come together to be one, but more of a tossed salad, where we all bring our own bit of flavor to the mix... But, you know what?  It still comes down to believing in a dream that is Freedom.  Whomever sits in that Oval Office, we, the people, are more than that one person.  We are the millions of unborn that George Washington was talking about, the millions of unborn that inspired men to risk their lives so that we could be free!  Somehow, we, the people, lost that vision, we lost that conviction.  Instead, we look for the first opportunity to stand divided, to call ourselves "individuals" rather than stand united.  We have forgotten that - in being a tossed salad rather than a melting pot - we each bring our individuality to the same serving bowl.  We need to be able to co-exist without destroying one another, and we need to remember, respect, and honor what America really is.  We need to reflect within ourselves and truly define what it means to be in America, whether you were born here or came here later in life - what does it mean, to be on American soil?  To be protected by the very establishment that so many people protest?  To have the right to protest without fear of death?

I will always stand for the National Anthem and remove my hat.  I will always, always thank the men and women who have protected us, and continue to protect us.  I will always put my hand on my heart and pledge allegiance.  And, from now on, I will always get emotional when I am reminded of what so many have been willing to die for since the 18th century.

I challenge you to re-read Patrick Henry's quote at the beginning of this post, the two paragraphs.  Read it out loud, as if you were speaking to a group of people, rallying the troops, so-to-speak.  I challenge you to speak it, own those words with conviction in your heart, and do it without choking up.  Now, do the same with the words of George Washington.

"For more than half a century, during which kingdoms and empires have fallen, this Union has stood unshaken.  The patriots who formed it have long since descended to the grave; yet still it remains, the proudest monument to their memory."  - Zachary Taylor