I Was on a Roll....

 Happy Easter! Hallelujah! He is Risen!!! 

I am sorry for being absent - Life has been pretty rough, and I'm just now processing things to the point of being able to put words to it now... 

In January, another uncle passed away, making this two uncles in twelve months to die from pancreatic cancer. No cancer runs in any side of anyone's family. Most of the relatives have all been tested, and it's not genetic, it's not hereditary, so we have no idea where it's coming from, but my dad was found to have multiple growths that need more tests done, two masses in his kidneys, lesions on his liver, and growths on both his body and tail of his pancreas as well. The medical team thinks things aren't as urgent for Pops, the growths are "smooth" and not concerning at this point, so there will be more tests coming up, but not urgently. It's still pretty scary though - sure feels like someone bought the Family Discount Johnson Pack Voodoo Dolls and is taking out the OG's one by one! 

More things just kept happening from there... whether it was worrying about friends' having complications during surgery, or my own car problems, or job insecurities or serious drama with coworkers, or people who I thought I could count on completely ghosting me, I felt like I had lost my footing and was simply tucking and rolling down this huge hill faster and faster, hitting boulder after boulder, bouncing up and crashing down, changing direction but never finding any hand-holds or roots or trees to gain my footing again. I'm pretty sure I'd still be rolling, but I hit a mud-pit... my dear, dear friend, my ROCK at work, told me that her husband got a new job and they will be moving to Texas by the end of the month. I think that was what broke the last of me, for the time being. Don't get me wrong - there is sooo much that I am thankful for, sooo much GOOD that is happening too! But my heart has to heal a little more before I can dive in. 

If you've got a minute or two to spare, the Johnson Family could use your prayers, please and thank you.

God is Good, ALL THE TIME. It might not make SENSE to us all the time, but yes, yes He is. 

New Year, Same Me.

 Welcome to 2026, my friends! I hope you all had a wonderfully safe time celebrating the new year, spending time with those you love. 

I used to be huge on resolutions - absolutely dead-set on them being something I could control, change, make happen... but it LITERALLY means that I was taking my own path, not trusting God to lead me where He needed me to be. And every year I would inevitably fail at what I thought I set my resolutions to be. It was miserable! Reading back through my journals, it was pretty hard to face year after year. 

Resolution. Resolute. Resolve. 

Can we really find a resolute answer to who we are? Can we resolve our problems, shortcomings, etc, overnight? in a year? turn it all around? Not a chance! Not alone. Trusting in the path the Spirit puts us on, taking steps in Faith, yes... and it can happen any day any time. And you know what? There's no failure when you follow what God lays out for you! 

Trust who you are. Trust what God's got for you. It's not easy sometimes, but I promise you, it takes such a weight off yourself to not have any pressure of changing who you are, what direction you're going... you just enjoy the celebration, trust the process, have a good time watching the ball drop, and wake up ready for January 1!